I know I am not alone when I say how stressful the last few years have been. Some days went smoothly but many more did not. A lot of the time I felt unsettled, as if I was drifting through life and I really should be focused on getting "more" done. I was doing readings and loving it but felt I needed to do more. Doing more is how I have always operated. I have always had a working plan and lots of ideas but lately I seemed to have lost my mojo to follow them through. What happened to my ability to focus and plan? Where had my drive and sense of purpose gone to? I still had ideas that I could get excited about but could not seem to implement them. Don't get me wrong, I really love what I do and Intuitive work brings me joy. I feel blessed when I am part of the healing that happens when connecting my clients to spirit. But I also love learning new things and
(I may have been slightly addicted to) being busy. I like to have "to do's" and it was disconcerting to find I was not accomplishing much. While I was trying to figure out how to move out of this funky energy I remembered how helpful using a planner and a journal always was to me. A place where I could write down not just what I had currently going on but new ideas, dreams and a place to express myself. Planners and Journals represent possibilities to me and I really missed feeling that excitement of starting something new. Would that help me be more productive? I was sure it would - it always had before. I immediately started to look for the right planner and journal for me. I looked at all different products, joined some Facebook Planning groups and watched multiple YouTube videos for the planning community. I enjoyed looking so much that I found my creative juices started to flow. I was so busy looking! 😉 I jumped back into planning and journaling again and that made my heart and soul happy. I felt more engaged and explored so many ideas for my business, my self development and my personal goals. But here is the kicker...I still did not feel productive. I was putting things I thought I should get done down on paper but then not doing them. I was so disappointed in myself and my energy started to feel even more sluggish. On one of our recent Psychic Wives podcasts we readings for each othe so our listeners could get an idea on how a session works. I wanted to know from spirit what was going on with me. I had a lot of things I thought I should achieve but I have been so scattered. How do I restart myself to get out of this energetic slow down? Kathy, Geri and Mary did my reading and it won't surprise you that I heard from all who connected to spirit I am exactly where I need to be right now. After the stressful last few years, I am in a very different place in my life than I have ever been. Since I am semi retired I have more open time than ever before. I have always looked to stay very busy and productive I realized I have been measuring myself against those old metrics. The feeling I had been wasting time really weighed me down. I did not connect the dots to see it is time to adjust to this new space in my life. I want to adjust. I really don't want the hustle and bustle anymore. I don't want a huge task list that I feel obligated to get through day after day. I have lived my entire adult life in that mode and I have grown tired of it and that's OK! This was a lightbulb moment. I had been feeling as if I have wasted all this time instead of enjoying it. How sad is that? This immediately shifted my perspective. The reading clearly pointed out that now is the time to explore and give thought to what I want the rest of my life to look like. What will really make me happy and fulfilled? What is really important to me - not as a business person but just as a person? I have felt scattered because the feelings of how to just "be" instead of "do" are so uncomfortable. I have been doing a lot of unproductive busy work that did not allow me time to think about myself (or accomplish much either). That was a huge eye opener for me. Sometimes you need an outside look from spirit to see things more clearly and this certainly did it for me. I was reminded that the Universe is in Divine order and I am exactly where I need to be. Now is my time to rest and restore and reset. I need to think about myself as a person and not just as a mother, grandmother, wife, etc. I am trying even though it is outside my comfort zone. I am getting used to feeling uncomfortable and still pushing through. Understanding the place I am in has also helped me to stop judging myself. I have shifted my thinking and now I am able to feel gratitude that I have the time slow down and enjoy life. I am so grateful for my family, friends and clients who allow me to be who I am and to do what I love. I am more focused on letting go of things that no longer serve me. My personal life and intuitive work fulfills me and I don't need "more" unless it brings me joy. I want to find the bits of happiness in every single ordinary day and really enjoy them. I am now heading to my sunroom to write in my journal and planner and not because it will make me productive but because it will make me happy. Better late than never.